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第8章 爱成就自信（第2页）
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Oneglanceinthemirrorrevealedthatitwasfarfromthetruth。
Askinnygirlwithmashedhairononesideofherheadandnomakeusmiledbackatme。Icouldfeelmystickymorningbreath。
"Liar。
"Ishotbackwithagrin。
Itwasmyusualresonse。Mymothersfirsthusbandwasnotakindmanandhisverbalandhysicalabuseforcedherandhertwochildrentofindasafelace。Heshoweduonherdoorsteonedaywithroses。Shelethiminandhebeatherwiththoserosesandtookadvantageofher。Ninemonthslatershegavebirthtoa9lb。13oz。babygirl—me。
Theharshwordsweheardgrowingutookroot。Ihadtroubleseeingmyselfassomeoneofvalue。IhadbeenmarriedtwoyearswhenIsurrisedmyself。MyhusbandwraedhisarmsaroundmeandtoldmeIwasbeautiful。
"Thankyou。
"Isaid。
Thesamethingirlwiththemousybrownhairstillstaredbackatmeinthemirror，butsomehowthewordshadfinallyblossomedinmyheart。
Alotofyearshaveassed。Myhusbandhasgreyinhishair。Imnolongerskinny。LastweekIwokeuandmyhusbandsfacewasinchesfrommine。
"Whatareyoudoing？
"Iasked。
Icoveredmymouth，tryingtohidemymorningbreath。Hereacheddownandkissedmyface。
"WhatIdoeverymorning。
"hesaid。
HeleavesintheearlyhoursofthemorningwhileIslee。Imissourmorningconversations，butIhadnotrealizedthathecontinuedtotellmethathelovedmeevenwhileIslet。Whenheleft，Irolledoverandhuggedmyillow。Ienvisagedtheictureofmelightlysnoringwithmymouthoenandgiggled。
Whataman！Myhusbandunderstandsmyast。HesbeenbesidemeasIvegrownfromanunsureyounggirltoaconfidentwoman，mother，seakerandauthor。
ButImnotsurethatheunderstandsthearthelayedinthattransition。ThewordsIheardgrowinguiercedmysoul，yethiswordsiercedevendeeer。
ThisAnniversaryDayIlantowakeearly。IwantstotellRichardhowmuchIlovehim。Hemaylookinthemirrorandseeanextraoundortwo，orwishforthedaywhenhishairwasdarkandcurly，butallIllseeisthemanwhosawsomethinginmewhenIcouldntseeitmyself，andwholeavesbutterflykisses，evenaftertwenty-threeyearsofmarriage。
